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( penelope anne daly )
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| Tuesday Novemver 17; 12:00noon CST (Chicago) |
[ Tue Nov 17th/ 11:01am ] |
Roselyn's fourth birthday is this coming weekend.
Four! Can you believe she's four already?
It really seems like just yesterday that I was giving birth to her.
Needless to say, I've been doing a bit of party planning. She's really into Tinkerbell at the moment, so I found some Tinkerbell themed party supplies. The cake is ordered and I think I've got everything pretty much settled. Who knew planning a party for a child could be so much work, huh?
In other news, Mom continues to improve slowly, but steadily. Silas has been a big help and I am feeling much less stressed. I think I may even attempt to have something resembling a social life and go out with a few old girl friends I bumped into the other day when I was shopping for Rose's party.
Things are going too well. I feel like I should pinch myself.
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| Friday September 25; 3:15pm CST (Chicago) |
[ Fri Sep 25th/ 10:52pm ] |
I'm divorced.
God, it feels strange and horrible to write that out. I've been avoiding it, because it sounds so strange to my own ears, but.. I still believe I made the right decision. Kyle and I were never in it for love and it didn't make sense to keep holding on when I wanted David needed someone who could be here.
What am I saying? I'm a selfish bitch.
[Private; Readable by Sofi, Silas and Emma]I feel so incredibly selfish. What if I'm ruining Rose's life with this? What if it wasn't the right thing? Things are so unbelievably wonderful with David and I can't express how good it feels to be around him, but I ended my marriage to be with my high school boyfriend. I can't help feeling slightly insane. I know Kyle and I weren't.. we were never in it for love or anything.. but I still can't help feeling guilty.
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| TBD. After her breakfast with Silas. |
[ Thu Sep 3rd/ 8:40pm ] |
[Private to David Grey]
Would you like to go see a movie tonight, David? Silas has offered to take care of Rose so I could have some time to myself, but I think I would like the company. What do you think?
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Mom is getting better. Slowly, but steadily she is. She smiled at me today. That shouldn't be such a momentous occasion, but it was the first smile I can recall since I came home. And then Dad smiled, though I'm sure he was trying hard not to cry. I can't blame him. He's worse than I am. Dammit. Would it kill him to show an emotion? To hug us? To let us comfort him instead of trying to go through it on his own? It's a good day. It feels like a good day. I hope the trend continues tomorrow.
[Blocked from Silas]
Silas spoke to me this morning about deferring his first year of college to stay home and I feel like the worst and most selfish person in the entire world for being so grateful for his choice. I'm not thrilled that he wants to put off his education, of course, but his mind seems to be made up and I don't want to discourage him from being close to home if that's what he wants.
Am I horrible? I should encourage him to look into taking some online courses, at least. I don't want him to give up his whole life for this, but it's Silas. He'd know I was lying if I told him I didn't need him here especially with Felix gone.
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